My autoimmune disease may be incurable…
but you better believe my determination to find joy,
grow through what I go through,
and live well is also incurable.
Embracing the Not So Pretty
Don’t get me wrong, I am not always a bundle of joy.
𝐼 𝒻𝑒𝑒𝓁 𝒹𝑜𝓌𝓃 𝓈𝑜𝓂𝑒 𝒹𝒶𝓎𝓈.
I am not always positive (my family can attest to this).
Sometimes I throw a two year old temper tantrum and 𝒾𝓉’𝓈 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝓅𝓇𝑒𝓉𝓉𝓎.
I do not always feel awesome.
𝒮𝑜𝓂𝑒𝓉𝒾𝓂𝑒𝓈 𝐼 𝒻𝑒𝑒𝓁 𝒶𝓃𝓎𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒷𝓊𝓉 𝒶𝓌𝑒𝓈𝑜𝓂𝑒.
My Incurable Determination
Here’s the thing…
I am determined to 𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐣𝐨𝐲, and keep trying to find joy 𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘱𝘪𝘵𝘦 𝘮𝘺 𝘥𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘥𝘢𝘺𝘴.
I am determined to 𝐠𝐫𝐨𝐰 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐈 𝐠𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡, and keep trying to 𝘨𝘳𝘰𝘸 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 it feels hard and anything but convenient.
I am determined to 𝗹𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝘄𝗲𝗹𝗹, and keep finding ways to live well, 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘮𝘺 𝘣𝘰𝘥𝘺 𝘰𝘤𝘤𝘢𝘴𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭𝘴 𝘣𝘳𝘰𝘬𝘦𝘯.
You see, when it comes to finding joy, learning, growing, and living well,
𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓈𝑒𝒸𝓇𝑒𝓉 𝒾𝓈 𝒾𝓃 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓈𝓉𝓇𝒾𝓋𝒾𝓃𝑔.
It’s when I allow myself to face my demons, look them in the eye, and say “you don’t win.”
It’s when I allow myself to ugly cry when I feel my autoimmune symptoms pop up again after months of feeling well.
It’s when I open up my journal, and pour out my heart – the good, the bad, and the downright ugly.
It’s when I don’t feel like cooking, so I turn on my favorite song and bust out some out of control dance moves as I make my AIP dinner.
It’s when I get my sleep back on track when insomnia starts to rear its ugly head.
It’s when I rein back in my stress when it gets out of control.
You see, 𝐈 𝐝𝐨𝐧’𝐭 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨𝐠𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞.
𝒩𝑜𝓃𝑒 𝑜𝒻 𝓊𝓈 𝒹𝑜.
But what do I have?
A deep down incurable determination and grit to keep trying, and to keep getting back up when I get knocked down.
Will You Please Join Me?
So will you join me in my incurable determination?
It’s okay if we don’t have it all figured out all of the time.
It’s okay if we don’t have our ducks all in a row all of the time.
Let’s just be crazy determined, and keep trying our best to get our ducks back in a row when they start to wander off.
This is not about perfection.
This is about a journey. A journey of finding joy while learning to live well with autoimmune disease.
Spoiler alert: sometimes the journey gets a bit messy, and that’s okay.
Let’s just wake up everyday and try our best.
𝐎𝐮𝐫 𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐠𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐞𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡.